Sarah El-Kaffel

-Motherless

Being without a mother. Not an orphelin, maybe it would be better to be an orphelin ; at least I had to deal with the fact that death took my mum away from me. 

But motherless is a total different thing, it’s me, I’m motherless.

I spent my whole childhood as a fatherless and tried hard to never be motherless too because no matter how strong I’m, I’ll always need someone by my side ( that’s what I thought, silly me)

However, Eventually , destiny was hiding an other surprise for me, it made me  motherless too.

Motherless is that feeling when you find no one to listen to you and you remember «  What if I had a mum ? »

Motherless is when you have a happy or sad event in your life and you find no one to share it with.

Motherless is when you see your mum with your own eyes going away, leaving you and you can’t do anything about it.

Motherless is when you struggle to get your mom back but she pushes you away.

Motherless is when your mum become heartless and throw you away like a piece of stone and not a peice of her heart.

Motherless is when you think over and over and you find no reason why you’re alone for the right moment.

Motherless is when you miss her and just don’t find her, it’s when you cry all night long under the pillow and waiting for the door to be opened by her.

Motherless is when you need a hug and you find no one to hug you.

That’s the meaning of being motherless.

But motherless is not only a sad part but it’s also a happy one :

Motherless made me the new strong me.

Motherless made me find the lost me and build it by myself.

Motherless taugh me how to rely on my own self and never expect anything from anyone.

Motherless taugh me how to love the little girl and the young lady inside me.

Motherless helped me to shine and rise up to the world and scream : «  here I am, I’m me as I’m and without anybody’s help, I’m the pride for myslef. »

Motherless is an infinty of words, feelings and lessons .. 

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