Sarah El-Kaffel: 10/26/14

dimanche 26 octobre 2014

Goodbye Old Friend. #Part 8 ~~THE END.

#Part 8: My Old best friend.

I feel sorry to write this , maybe a bit guilty too ..

But, I guess , I threw all behind. I figure out that I worth someone better , someone who cares , someone who gives a Damn! I thought that I will never replace you , I considered you as ' The irreplacable'. Yet, I was so dead wrong. You didn't appreciate a thing ,I just learned from you how to stand for myself and by myself.

Maybe it will be the last letter here , maybe I'll miss you someday, but , I'll never get you back into my life. NEVER.

Goodbye..

Goodbye Old Friend. #Part 7

Libellés : My writings à 11:52

#Part 7: My Old best friend.

Now, I'm looking at the mirror and seriously , I'm not recognizing myself anymore. All what am sure about is that " it's because of you".
You made us strangers and Icouldn't find the lost me between all your hidden meanings , your mestirious looks , your creepy smile, your secret whisperers.
I can't take it any longer. Why don't you just leave me the hell alone , living in peace. I'm worth it..

Goodbye Old Friend. #Part 6

Libellés : My writings à 11:41

#Part 6 : My Old best friend.

and now! now , you'r asking me to replace you because things change? am i dreaming? i still do remember when you promised that even if the whole wrold change , the entire world stand against us , we won't change , we willl be toghether for ever , us against the world, us against them all. why now? why try to change me now!
I must be blind , i'm must be deeply caring , i must be myself-destroyer for still beleiving that you will feel me again and you'll put that simle on my face which i missed for so long.
one more thing , i wish that you could read this and know that despite of all the broken promises , i won't ever forget a single detail about you , a single moment i had next to you , a single tear i dropped for you , a single song of yours which made me crying up oceans and oceans.
I won't give up on you, i won't forget you & and i'll enjoy this pain because it belongs to you.

Goodbye Old Friend. #Part 5

Libellés : My writings à 11:37

#Part 5: My Old best friend.

Well, I'm wondering why am iIcalling you " my old best friend" while I still consider you as the closest person to my heart even if I'm not showing it.
Maybe life taugh me to behave this way , especially after all what I went through because of hardly caring you.
I didn't regret any try from me to get you back , neither a tear I dropped for you , even my broken heart , it still believe that you are worth it.
am I waiting for illusion or someday I'll get the old you?

I'm missing you..

Goodbye Old Friend. #Part 4

Libellés : My writings à 11:33

#Part 4 : My Old best friend.

And here I am standing mysteriously on pavements by my own, the other part gave up on me, the other half of me left.. ~ Longing, craving, hankering, nostalgia ~ that’s what dominating my mind and heart too. I have plenty of question marks which need answers, I am wondering and wondering and blowing up my mind looking for it, while I know already that the only one whom going to give a response is you. However, where are you? Where are you to delight my wounded heart? I guess.. You are lost, I am lost and we are lost.

Goodbye Old Friend. #Part 3

Libellés : My writings à 11:27

#Part 3: My Old best friend.

Now! I just have these memories to remember, just these old moments to bleed my heart, just these yore to tear up, just watching your ghost making me dropping oceans and oceans.. like a shattered flower with faded colors..
I am not me anymore, I am vanishing.. Is that your absence doing that to me? Is it me this much hopeless? Or maybe it's life screwing me down as we used to face it together, we were us against the world, us against them all.

Goodbye Old Friend. #Part 2

Libellés : My writings à 11:18

#Part 2 : My old best friend.

I didn’t find someone to confess since you've been gone, just my pen and my papers. Sometimes I give up on them too, I break my pen, I cut off my papers because I don’t find words which describe my statues without you, without the old us. I missed your smile, so badly did miss our crazy moments full of joy and innocence, our stupid fights, our pieces of tears at goodbye. I miss how much close we were, I miss every single moment we had, I miss “she will be loved”, I miss “anywhere but here”. I miss you being around all the time, I miss the fact that you were my only refuge and my closest ever.

Goodbye Old Friend. #Part 1

Libellés : My writings à 11:12

#Part 1 : My old best friend.

To you my soulmate , I’m writing secret letters, just because we are not us anymore, we are not talking as we used to do for hours and hours ignoring the whole world, living in our own special world.
We are hiding now, we are escaping, we've became strangers..

Sarah El-Kaffel