Sarah El-Kaffel

~ It've been son long I didn't post on the blog and I was so so busy but here I'm back and I'm preparing lot of news for the Future iA :)

Today's DIY is 100% GIRLY as usual :P

Let's do it ;)

.. عامي العشرون لم يكن خالياً كغيره من الخيبات

غير أني و في عامي الجديد لن أتذكر الخيبات و لن أحكي عنها، سأتذكر فقط ما قدمت لنفسي من إنجازات

..إنجازات لطالما سوفتها، لطالما تغاضيت عنها لسبب ما

!أنا في عمر العشرين عرفت المعنى الحقيقي للحب

حب الله هو الحب الذي ملك قلبي و أسره، حب أنساني شهوات دنيوية. إستسلمت لإيماني.. رميت تلك الدنيا و صخبها ورائي أدوسها كما داستني، أنتقم منها كما إنتقمت مني. و لكن لماذا نلوم الحياة؟ ألسنا نحن المسؤولين عن هفواتنا؟ عن قلوبنا؟ عن عقولنا؟

أنا في عامي العشرين أقلعت عن عادات لطالما كان علي أن أهجرها.. هجرتها من أجل الحب.. حبه هو وحده. إنه حبيبي سبحانه وتعالى

قلبي في أوج شبابه خال من عشق رجل فأنا عاشقة خالق كل الرجال

أنا في عامي الجديد، في عامي الحادي والعشرين، أنوي أن أطرق المزيد من اﻷبواب باحثة عن شتى السبل كي يغفر لي مالكي زلات لم يغفرها لي القدر و لم أغفرها لنفسي حتى. . زلات قد تكون جد بسيطة في مجتمعاتنا بيد أنها بالنسبة لي زلات جسيمة في حق حبيبي

..أنا أمة الله وحده لا طامع لي سوى أن تؤخذ روحي مني و هو راض عنها. . فيا رب

// Written 19-05-1994

People make fun of me. They think I'm idiot.

Well, I agree. But,I think they are idiots too.

One thing we are different about at this point, is the way how I see myself idiot through their eyes  and the way they see me idiot and the reason I think they're idiots for.

Starting by their perspective:

I'm idiot for them because  I care too much, I cry too much, they feel I'm weak , they think they can make my heart broken very easiley, I keep asking for forgivness even for mistakes I didn't make, I give my all till I feel empty inside, I stay alone, I don't study well when I'm upset, they can affect me with the simplest acts, I write sad things, they think I have no refuge but them being pleased to me.

Now, my own perspective:

I see myself idiot for one only reason which is giving them the chance to think I'm that way.
and guess what? Let me tell you why you're IDIOTS people!
I care too much because I'm tender.
I cry too much because it's healthy.
I pretend being weak to know true from fake friends around.
Each time I get a broken heart, I fix it and blend it. AGAIN AND AGAIN ( I don't get bored don't worry)
I ask for forgiveness because Allah is ghafur and rahim.
I give my all because I'm genorous.
I stay alone because I'm a thinker.
I don't study well when I'm upset because I study well when I'm very upset.
You don't affect me with your silly acts because I'm laughing at your poor minds deep inside.
I write sad things because I believe that arts never come from happiness.
Oh and about REFUGE : I pray, I read books, I listen to Quran, I code, I write, I paint , I smile, I thank my GOD for being who I'm. and I smile all the time, I smile.

AND NOW, WHO's the idiot hah? TELL ME. :)

Salam alaykom :D

I'm baaack after a while, well maybe a little bit long but never mind.
I cam with a new DIY and this time it's about jewleries ladies, YES!

So I won't keep talking too much, let's show you what I made lately in few simple tips.

#Part 8: My Old best friend.

#Part 7: My Old best friend.

Now, I'm looking at the mirror and seriously , I'm not recognizing myself anymore. All what am sure about is that " it's because of you". 
You made us strangers and Icouldn't find the lost me between all your hidden meanings , your mestirious looks , your creepy smile, your secret whisperers. 
I can't take it any longer. Why don't you just leave me the hell alone , living in peace. I'm worth it..